messy wisdom

I know I had too much to drink
I don’t know what I was wearing
or how long it took you to get into my bed
I remember the lapses in my memory and
the lack of judgment in yours

I know I had too much to drink
and I know you were wholly conscious
You promised to take care of me,
tell me, where did you stow your conscience?

And maybe the actions don’t make the man, but
maybe his excuses do

I know I didn’t say yes
or maybe or soon or later

I said nothing
during your reckless abandon of me
I said nothing
because I was under an influence
I said nothing 
because I should have been at rest
I said nothing 
to aid and abet your stained glass reputation
while cutting myself on the shards of my memory 
 
In the darkness, 
I said nothing

I said nothing
I said nothing
I said nothing